just when you think...

you start thinking.. wow. D is doing so great.. i am so proud.. wow huge strides have come his way...

one lil thing.. comes up.. and you see wow... that affected him so differently than any other child... and you sit back and remember wow i do have to take things slightly different.. i will always have to remember that.. and its so hard to remind myself sometimes... i feel like i give in.. so then i am a little harder on him than i should be... i turn around and see how it affects him and my heart melts..

he is taking allot of things personally.. say a friend was supposed to come over.. we set the date.. dylan starts asking from the moment he wakes up.. the friend never comes over or calls or answers the phone.. dylan then proceeds to come up with why its his fault.. and how terrible of a person he is and then becomes self violent...

how to you avoid that... its the hardest thing to see my baby take such a negative approach with himself...

school is starting today after a 3 week break.. i hope it helps him a little.. he has been so down..